This is my mom story. The story that has been in the making since I delivered my first child almost six years ago. This is the journey I knew I needed to take, but didn't have the faith to start. This is the is probably the most controversial journey's a woman could travel - the journey home.
I made it look easy. You know, being "Super Woman!" PhD, great job, great husband, and babies on my hip. Yes, I could climb the corporate ladder and STILL be an amazing mom. Heck, I nursed three kids - with two of them being twins! I did the mom thing and the "Dr." thing, and the woman in charge then, and unfortunately I did them all with divided attention.No one complained, heck - even my half efforts were great. But I knew the truth, I wasn't all that super. Once it was obvious my kids needed an educational change, it was time to take the plunge. The plunge into the cool, refreshing, invigorating waters I had always been too scared to jump in to. I was coming home.
Okay, not "all" the way home. I will still teach a class or two each semester, but most will be online. But, I have turned in my corporate cape for the cape that matters most. Super Woman is so "yesterday", I have seen what I can do, what I can accomplish, when my best "work" is outside the confines of my home. I look forward to seeing what happens when I take my corporate prowess and focus it "like a laser" on my castle. I am excited about the future.
I know, most people who know me think I am crazy. You are leaving "what" to do "what"? Yes, I am leaving that to do this, and I am excited. I am ready to admit that wife and mother really are the number one priorities in my life. Oh, I "said" that a lot, but the fact that I was on my blackberry - in the operating room, while they were prepping me for a c-section to deliver my twins tells another story.
I gave the outside world my all - its was great, rewarding, and even sometimes exciting. But, it just never thrilled me as much as that little "I love you mommy" from my daughter or when my boys ran in the room to show me a snail or a worm they caught. Now THAT is exciting.
Of course, like my normal super hero self, I have to take on the whole thing - so not only am I coming home, I will also be homeschooling. But, doesn't every parent want their kids to have a PhD as a teacher? Talk about class size - with a class size of three we will be one of the most exclusive private schools in the world - LOL.
Okay, I'm a little nervous - but that never stopped me before. In fact, it usually excited me and so it is again. I walk with eyes wide open into the new journey - wish me luck!
